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HOLA!!

currently feeling shitty. these two songs really relate to it.

Cold as You & You're not sorry

both by taylor swift. listen to the lyrics. argh. i hate the feelings in me.

in bombay. my heart hurts but not gonna say why.

i hate the silence when he is packing his stuffs. i know, he will be gone in camp again. i dunno why do they have to serve. i miss him now. i wont see him till sunday. and the fact tat i always see him for awhile makes it worse. haiz. my job, his army always clash. i hate it. =(

i dunno how to express my feelings and thoughts now. im feeling sad now. i love this relationship with him. i love being with him. i love the fact that he gave this relationship another chance.

but i can no longer suck it up anymore. honestly, i still feel pain. every now and then i will think of the past. the past is still a fresh wound. i cant seem to forget but i am trying. really trying. just today, when we're about to land in abu dhabi, i think of the past. it hurts, i almost cried. haiz, why. i think of what i just found out. yes he said, it was the past. but sometimes i think, "why cant you cancel the order? why.

i want this relationship to happen and work out. i really want.

im super duper sad. im super duper careless. fuck ok! my hp soaked in water. and it can't be on again. i feel handicap without hp. something's missing. fuck. =( i can't wait to get back to singapore and go to nokia care centre. hurhur. if it cost a bomb, i rather get a new phone.

and baby is not talking to me when im sad. hurhur.

yes, i miss my silly baby.

and so baby have already went back to camp. i hate the feeling with him not around. and the fact that i dunno when i'll see him again makes it worse. i miss him. =(

should i just let go of this job? hmmmm. off to reading my driving theory.